I am: Jade, hard to wake up, fascinated with everything, overly excited, happy as hell, aspiring photographer
:Artish stuffs: :Mah face: :Real life: :Baby Juno:
I love: My children, my husband, Art, Music, Life, Light, dreadlocks, creatures of all shapes and sizes, water, nature, mother earth.
<3 I love you, I love you, I love you.
I know all my posts are turning into baby posts, but, I’m pregnant, so suck it kids.
Soooo crib bedding came in and it’s ADORABLE!!!! Such lovely soft tones!! So I’ve been hunting craigslist obsessively trying to find a gently used crib and I keep missing by one person, but today I talked to a lady and my mom is going to check it out/ pick it up tomorrow! Its a white sleigh crib that converts into a toddler bed than into a twin.. it even has an awesome little drawer underneath it! So we shall see tomorrow…..
I put in a credit application to a dealership this afternoon so I’m waiting to hear back from them for this van… it’s such a good deal, one owner, carfax has every record of it’s maintenance and fixerupery since it was bought… the price is amazing… It would be perfect. Now just fingers crossed that I can get financed….
I’m up late watching Revolutionary Road. Which is boring me to death. Relationship movies like this just don’t do it for me. I’m a scifi action lady. I need something more than two people trying to work out their relationship problems the whole time. Bleh. Hopefully it will put me to sleep right and proper.
Blood pressure: 134 over 82 < the nurse said this was ok, but I’m not sure I like my blood pressure this high, it’s never been this high before, going to work on that….
Weight: 310 < I’ve gained 17 pounds. NOT OK. But the midwife gave me the go ahead to exercise still… She said I can resume my routine as soon as this fatigue buggers off, but don’t exert myself and keep my calories at 2000 to 2300 a day… So that’s encouraging. I’m not trying to lose weight, but I don’t want to add more to the already ridiculous situation…..
Tentative due date: August 14th!! Next Tuesday I go for blood work and glucose test (yuuuuccccckkkkkk) and the week after that will be the confirmation ultrasound and maybe get to hear the babies heartbeat!!! I can’t wait.
My mom went with me today and she’ll probably go with me to the blood work hoodiggy…. But justin cant wait to go to the ultrasound! He’s so excited/nervous, haha.
I’m so super excited and glad I picked Oschner. I spoke to the midwife about birthing policys… other hospitals are so particular about who can go in when and what and all that, and she said in the birthing tub room I can pretty much do whatever I want as long as my pregnancy is normal and there are no complications. She said that they pretty much lay back and just let me have the baby and do my thing. I can have the girls in there while I give birth too!! Such a change of what I was used to with my last two births. AND after I have the baby they don’t just take it away and throw it around and poke it and clean it and all that, I get an hour of skin to skin contact with it, immediately after I have it, as long as it’s healthy, which is SO awesome. I hated that I worked so hard to see my little one only for them to wisk it away and put me in a recovery room. I’m so excited about this experience!!
Birthday/thanksgiving was fun, even though I’ve been in a slump….. I HAVE to go get my teeth taken care of….. my tooth is bothering the crap out of me so it’s probably getting infected again….Justin and I are taking a staycation in january (yyaaaaaaayyyy paid time off!!) So I will probably schedule my mouth cutting openery for then….I didn’t exercise at all this week, but I’m determined to get back on it. I was feeling so good!! I’m not going to beat myself up about it. I’m just going to get back on the wagon.
I babysat for a friend of mine friday night.. got to rock and sing her to sleep and everything…. she’s so precious… I miss it so much…. Today I had a cry fest to Justin about wanting another baby and wanting to have a big family because I want all my children to come visit me for the holidays and bring their children and it be huge and awesome and yea. The baby fever is getting worse and we aren’t trying, officially, but I feel like it should have happened by now…..How bad did that damn depo mess up my system? It’s been over two years now………Ugh. Stupid instincts/hormones/bleh…
I feel like I need to pour things out of my head, but I feel so empty. Not bad empty, just, I have no words.
Justin and I have been ridiculous lately, both the kids being in school and us getting alone time has really really helped. Our scheduling manager has been giving us off the day together during the week as of late and we spend all day off together cuddling and doing things we can’t usually do when the kids are home…. Our schedules are so hectic that our sex life was suffering a bit, in quality…. we would both be so exhausted at night that it just doesn’t happen. But these days off have been wonderful. It’s revived our urgency for each other. Super snuggles, laying in bed talking and hand holding. Giggling our butts off. We didn’t have a lot of time to maintain our friendship. We do now.
I honestly don’t think I would ever find another guy that could make me this happy, be this attached and connected to someone. Forever and ever.
Sometimes you just have to get over yourself. Sometimes you have to just go sit in nature for a moment and let yourself feel small. Sometimes all it takes to realize what you want is a moment of quiet. These things I have done this past week, and when I put everything in it’s place and sit back and look around I realize…..
I’m really, really, really happy.
My first memory, that’s a weird one…. I don’t even know how to answer that… The first one that stands out…. We weren’t officially dating yet, but I think we were doing the friends with benefits thing at that point…..Our brains were fuzzy with cocaine and wine.. and we were sitting on the back of my car in front of my apartment chain smoking and babbling and playing 20 questions…. and neither one of us could stump the other because the category was animals…. and I was fully excited about the fact that he knew as many random animal facts as I did… I remember thinking that this guy was different from all my friend-boys my whole life, and how happy I was to meet him… Feelings were brewing but at that point I shoved them down, because just to be with him, and laugh and talk and even sit in silence was enough.